I've recently had to confront a couple of radically life changing realizations about myself. The first came in early February and I only narrowly avoided attempting suicide then. I managed to maintain for the most part until today... About three days ago I seemingly spontaneously put the pieces of the puzzle together and made another frightening discovery about myself. It answered a lot of questions and explained a lot of things in my life but it's bittersweet at best. I was doing all right considering my problem up until I had this recent epiphany. I cannot tell anybody I care for about either of these problems. I'm alone and I can't handle losing every shred of the identity I thought I had. I nearly broke down at school today and when I got home I tried to vent my frustrations in my journal. That's when I lost it, I've broken down, I can't friggin' take it anymore. There's no way to fix one of my problems (the other can be fixed, but it requires telling my family) and I don't know what to do. I'm too young to go get help myself, so getting help would involve telling my parents at least something and I really don't know if they could accept me if they knew everything. I keep getting nagging desires to just end it all whenever a spontaneous opportunity presents itself. I can't go on living like this, but I'm trapped and have no even slightly favorable options. What should I do?