To start off my parents split when I was 9 months old. I never got to see my father and just before Christmas when I was 5 I was told I'd get to meet him for the first time. Days latter his new wife's ex broke into his house and killed my father, my step mother and my two step sisters before killing himself. I spent my whole life trying to be like my father and when I turned 18 my mother told me they split up and he wasn't allowed to see me or my sister because she had accused him of molesting my sister. He was never convicted and all of his friends and family have said it was a lie created by my mother to gain full custody of her kids. Months ago I got in an argument with my mother and I wanted the conversation to end so I said as an expression that "I might as well get a gun and shoot myself". I did not own a gun and I had no intention of killing myself but she called 911 and had me committed based on a false report full of exaggerations. No one believed me when I tried to tell them the truth and they held me for 10 days and put me on medication that makes me want to kill myself. I've told lots of people this and they refuse to change the medication to something that will help. While I was in the hospital my best friend and mentor died of a brain tumor and I never got to say good bye to him or go to his funeral (he was the father I never had). Months latter she put together another false report and had me committed a second time again for 10 days. As a result of the first two hospitalizations I lost my home and had to live in my car (it's a two seater sports car so not fun). About a month into living in my car I did try to kill myself but was rushed to the er and put back in a mental institution for another 10 days. After I got released again I got and held a job despite living in my car. While I was working my hardest to get myself back on my feet Sound Mental Health told me I was refusing treatment because my anxiety prevents me from attending groups but they wont help me with my anxiety. My case manager there told me I needed to quit my job and live in a homeless shelter so I could attend their day program. I refused to do this because the day program is doing work their like gardening or dishes and they give you a sandwich. I was/am working at a pizza place where I not only get a pay check but free pizza as well because my boss knew I was living in my car (in my eyes I was doing the better of the two choices I had). In December I finally saved enough money to get a place and I moved into a house with two other people. A month or so ago I had stopped by my mothers to get some things and we got in an argument about what she has done to me and my life. She called the police and had me taken to jail and now there is a no contact order so I can't talk to her if I wanted to or even go to family functions such as Christmas, Easter, or thanks giving. There was no need for the no contact order as I have never once in my life hit her or anyone else. I never have been a danger to her or anyone else. Most of my stuff is still at my mothers house and I'm not allowed to get it and this is making my job and daily life more difficult as all my tools and spare parts for my car are at her house. I now have to pay court fines and these along with my car insurance, food and other daily costs are threatening my ability to pay rent and maintain a home. I'm currently looking at having to go to jail on the 11th because I can't afford the $25 payment that is due at that time. I have less than $5 in food stamps to get me to the 7th so eating will only be free food from work for the next week. I already had to take out a payday loan to afford gas to be able to work and go to my doctor appointment so I can't take out another one for my court fines and food. On top of this my mother has lied to my entire family and told them everything about my trips to the hospital which it is not her right to do so. My sister refuses to talk to me because of what my mother has said. I have no friends to talk to, I have no girlfriend I can share this with, I call the crisis line regularly but they only talk to you for 30min and I don't get much past telling my story before I get cut off. I've lost everything and I don't see any reason to try anymore. And this is only the tip of the iceberg that I'm dealing with right now.