My apologies for repeating the same idiot problem whenever I show up on this forum; my contract with my present job runs out in two weeks, and I haven't been able to psych myself up to look for a new one. My supervisor has really done a number on my (already extremely limited) self-esteem this year, and buried me with work. Today I finally got up enough confidence to put in my resume to a couple of schools, and then I realised that I lacked an important document that I need to apply for teaching jobs back in Australia, and that it will take about 2 weeks to get! This pretty much ends it, because: My visa here in China ends 30th June - I don't know what will happen if they deport me or arrest me. I can't go back to my abusive family in Australia, and I have no friends who will put me up. I haven't arranged a moving company or bought a plane ticket back. I'm running out of money. Even my therapist is getting impatient with me, because I don't do my exercises and things. I just fantasize about burning all my teaching materials, dumping my clothes and furniture and jumping on the next plane to some exotic place where I can have a final fling. Again, I'm sorry for even writing this here. But I have to get the words out of my head, because otherwise I'll lose it at work today. Sadistic Supervisor is doing the rounds and I don't want to give her the satisfaction of seeing me crying or worse.