I know now that talking about my issues and problems are not to be done. I will not tell people whats bothering me anymore because I've seen what it's done. I've seen how my actions have made me lose so much, made me want to just give up. Talking about what im thinking and feeling only causes people to turn around and run. I've lost so much this past week and I'mtrying to hang on..trying so hard to get past things..and i've realized I'll just keep internalizing things b/c that's what works best. At the risk of losing myself or losing people i love i choose losing myself.