I've been looking up methods again. I am having really strong thoughts that are taking over. I feel worthless and that I have no purpose in which at the moment I don't! I've talked in detail on my blog about it and being as though I'm using my phone here I'm not going to repeat it. I feel as though I'm in a viscous circle that I can't get out of. And if I'm honest I don't think I want to. I certainly don't have the energy to put in to doing so. That's why I don't want to. I can't be bothered. I'm not going to do anything tonight but I Know I could. I know the combination of things would work and it's so tempting.