As the title briefly describe I've loss the will to live...as for the reasons why? their are alot...I've experiencing all type of scenarios... Family issue and school issues ( I'm a year 12 my last year and for me to feel this way I know is a negative impact ) and thats basically it. I'm an Asian as for Asian parents expectation are high. My goal education level is University and now since I've loss all motivations to think I will successfully get to my destinated goal. I don't really strugle before but now since my motivation is gone all I think of what am I living for? I feel miserable, My parents are going to divorce. My father never around when I need him. My father job isn't like any other people if you know what i mean "underground organization " which make me feel like why why am i experiencing all this and my mother doesn't really know any thing about me. She is was having an affair not so sure now...I don't think she knows what she done has so much impact on me also i have a sister which makes me the oldest child. I feel like I want to burst out in tears just writing this up but I honestly wish I never of experience any of this. I do not want to suicide or any thing but I just feel I lost the will to live, at this very moment I could risk my life for another that is an example of what I mean. Sorry for my long paragraphs I' just need to get this out of my system it's very been on my back for years.