I've Lost My Kit!!

Discussion in 'Self Harm & Substance Abuse' started by Buggsy2008, Jan 26, 2009.

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  1. Buggsy2008

    Buggsy2008 Well-Known Member

    I can't find it anywhere. I keep all the things I use when I s.h. in an old handbag of mine. You know, tissues to clean up and bandages to hide the cuts etc. aswell as some broken glass I use.

    I like to know where it is, even when i'm not thinking of using it. But when I need it then it's there. Now I wanted to check it was nearby incase but I can't find it and i'm starting to panic now.

    If I have the kit I know I won't go too far, it's like a coping thing. If I use the kit I can restrict myself. If I don't have it then I use the first thing that comes to hand and that's when things tend to get out of control.

    Before I had the kit I ended up in a&e because a cut on my leg wouldn't stop bleeding. After that I made the kit up and set myself some rules.

    When i'm not feeling suicidal and I have the urge to s.h. it's for relief, so I don't want to do anything dangerous.

    What am I going to do if I can't find my kit?! I need it close by. I can't cope without it. It sounds stupid but it's like a compulsion i've got. I've turned my room upside down and it's not turned up!!
  2. Hurted

    Hurted Well-Known Member

    Im sorry buggsy:(:hug:

    Please stay safe.
  3. Buggsy2008

    Buggsy2008 Well-Known Member

    Panic over. I've found it. It had fallen down behind my desk. I feel better now i've got it close by. I'm going away tomorrow and want to take it with me incase I need it.
  4. porcelain child

    porcelain child Well-Known Member

    I am glad you found it hunni... nothing worst then not having anything when you need it badly...

  5. Buggsy2008

    Buggsy2008 Well-Known Member

    Tell me about it, i've got it packed in my bag.. bought it with me.
  6. porcelain child

    porcelain child Well-Known Member

    I hope you don't have to use it..

    But have a good time where you are going...

  7. Buggsy2008

    Buggsy2008 Well-Known Member

    Thanks. It's stress free up here. It's a nice break. Home Friday though :(
  8. Synesthetic Soul

    Synesthetic Soul Well-Known Member

    Glad the panic's over, but please be safe. Remember to take care of you! Okay? Okay!
  9. Epical Taylz

    Epical Taylz Well-Known Member

    :hug: I'm glad you found it
    I know how I feel when I lose something that I always need.
    My rings, for example.

    I hope you have a good weekend :hug:
    Stay Safe:heart:
  10. blade

    blade Well-Known Member

    stay safe babe,
  11. Buggsy2008

    Buggsy2008 Well-Known Member

    Thanks. I havent felt the urge yet. Just having it close is enough
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