I've spent the last few years of my life trying to hide from my family and friends the fact that I'm depressed. I've done the reading, matched the symptoms, tried everything i could to help myself through it, and sometimes it works, but it always seems to come back worse than the last time. I've tried talking to a couple of family members, but every time i try the words dry up in my mouth or I become embarrassed and I can't talk about it, and sometimes even the thought of telling some one I know about it just makes me burst in to tears. I don't want to tell my parents, because i know them, and i know it won't help anything, but i don't know what else to do. I need help, i know that, but I'm too afraid to get it.