So I just can't go on anymore. I have tried to see my way past this and there just is no end.This world will be much better off without me around to be a drain.Wife, career, everything is gone AGAIN!! Can't rely on family so I will just make it easy for all of us. I am tired of starting over and I am tired of living with PTSD. My wife is going to her parents on the 20th and I guess my Christmas will be not waking up on the 26th. I already have the <Mod Edit, WildCherry: Methods>. I have around twenty two days to get my affairs in order. Funny thing is everyone in my life is COMPLETELY BLIND to this. I guess it will be a relief. I just wanted someone outside the situation toknow why.