Sam, don't give in. This down period will pass. It may be dark now, but there will come a day when you are happy with your life, just give that day a chance to come. I know it's hard, it might be hard for a while, but keep going. You seemed so strong when I first spoke to you, and you still have that strength. Just go to a hospital. Go to a clinic, go to a police station, hell go to job centre. Go somewhere, anywhere, and speak to someone. Make them listen, tell your story in your words. Make them understand. You don't have to die, you can do so much more with your life. Please, keep talking, keep fighting, keep living. :hug: