I wish i was dead, i cant kep this up. this whole facade. help i was getting, ha, what a farce, help. no help for me and many like me. just a drudging ceremony of internal feelings that no one cares to understand. not even those closest to me. i tried my hardest to help others and i feel the hypocrit for doing so. im so sorry for all those who will never get that dream. im so sorry i could cry for each and every one of you. it makes me sick this world and all its evils. its insensitivity and its selfishness. my own parents are givimng up on me becuase im acting like a depressed person would. maybe ill show them what happens when you give up on someone that needs help. maybe i'll show them the bloody remains of thier offspring and see the depreration ton their faces that ive endured for over 7 years. i know some of you hav suffere more than me and it kills me to think of how bad it must feel. i wish there was a place where we could meet and live away romt he crulety of this ocean of torment and spend eternity basking in knowledge and freindship. ive never felt so alone.