I've never hurt myself before, but now it really feels like something I want to do. I think it came from reading this forum. It feels like something pulling me towards it Maybe I don't want to physically hurt myself. It's hard to explain. Maybe I just want to not eat anything, even though I'm really hungry. I don't have an eating disorder, it just feels like something I want to do. Maybe I don't deserve to eat? Sometimes I do get the urge to try slicing my arm up a bit, just to see what its like. I don't like pain, but something makes me want to do it. Just to see how it makes me feel. Lots of other people do it, so maybe I should try it too. I don't know. I don't even know why I feel like this. I just do?