Lately I've been thinking about how I will end it. I've already planned everything out in my mind just counting til the day comes. I'm always sad and depressed but I hide it all the time. I just want to die all the time because I believe I was born by mistake. My brother died right after birth and I know that is the only reason I'm here. I feel as if I was not meant to be born in the first place. I want to die because I feel that I am unneeded. I hate feeling this way but I can't help it.