I've been drinking for a few years, and occasionally I go on benders where I will drink a bottle of vodka every day for 2 weeks. Ive always been able to stop before, I used to take some drugs as well but Ive always been able to stop but now I dont think I can. In the past few months, I cant think of a day where I havent had a drink at all. Sure, Ive not been binge drinking every night and sometimes its only a couple of cans but its almost become normal to me and I hate it. Recently Ive also been doing some other stuff. On monday I took about 30 pills, not really to kill myself but just to hurt. And tonight Ive had some pills, some drink and about half a bottle of night nurse. This is a typical night for me. Im not sure what to do though. The other day when I woke up after taking those pills and drinking I was feeling pretty ill and didn't go into college. My mum had a complete go at me for not going in and I didn't dare tell her why, I just started drinking again. Not really sure what to do.