Like the title says, I know I'm depressed. I've known for the past 3 years that I was depressed. Everything that I used to take joy in just seems like a waste of time, I haven't had a creative thought for the past 2 years, I've spent just about every day since last december on my bed, my sleeping pattern is out of whack and I've been feeling worst because of it. I remember waking up at 7 pm and feeling like I wanted to cry for almost no reason at all. My feelings of depression all stem from abandonment, loneliness, low self worth, low self esteem, poor self image, boredom, continued heartache, and guilt. My "friends" from my main group are all too busy with school to help me get out of my house for 20 minutes, and 1 just goes to work all the time, and 2 have girlfriends that they spend every waking moment with. Sure, pay attention to your girl but seriously, what about the guys who've been there before she came along? And my friends from my second group all dorm at the school that I can no longer go to so my only contact with them is online which is not enough. I just want to know, what can I do to get rid of this? I can't go to a psychiatrist cause their just money sinks that I can't afford and mostly just waists of time and I don't want to coat my brain with medication. I've been seeing around recent threads about how depression is a chemical thing and that only chemicals can fight chemicals but I'd rather believe that I can get rid of it some other way rather than be dependent on a pill. Anyone got any ideas? IM me if you wish on MSN or AIM.