i have absolutly nothing to look foward to on a daily basis besides getting off of work and taking enough pills that my eyes roll in the back off my head. what has happaned to my life? i think about killing myself 5-10 times a day, i cry like a pussy from being so loney and i cant stop thinking of the fucked up shit the people who were closest to me have done. its been a little over a year since my only attempt. im so spent, saturdays the day! i feel relieved ive set the date! now maybe i could enjoy the last couple of days!