Years ago, I cut myself on a daily basis. I was coping with too much, couldn't handle it, and started cutting. I still don't really know why, it jus seemed right. It made me feel better, or at least gave me a focus away from things that hurt emotionally. I stopped because i found an escape. Things got better, and i kind of stopped needing it. The scars mostly faded and only a few people notice them. Except i've started again. It feels like welcoming back an old friend. its making me feel safer. I'm scared of getting really really hooked. I can't conceal it from my partner forever, and there's only so much skin to cut... what if i can't keep it under control? It scares me, but i'm still doing it, and I still don't really know why.