Plain and simple...I've stopped caring about what happens to me. Stopped caring about everything. I wanted to walk out in front of a bus the other day, but I didn't because a friend was with me. I wouldn't want her to see that. I don't care about anything. My mom will ask me, "What are you interested in...What do you want to do with the rest of your life?" ....psht, I don't know because I don't care. I try to explain to her how I feel but she doesn't understnd. She sometimes thinks I'm making it up. So, I've stopped caring if she believes me or not ...and so we've stopped talking. Or at least I have. I don't care if we do or don't talk. I doesn't make a difference either way with her. I just feel like I'm wasting oxygen that someone else could use.