Yeah, as above really. Nothing is wrong, I'm just filled with, and defined by extreme apathy, which has lead me to make the wrong choices, time and again. I have no motivation, no drive and no desire whatsoever. I'm emotionally dry. More importantly I have absolutely no fear of death, and the only thing holding me back is a lack of drive, and an appropriate method. I don't want some grand or futile gesture, or a quick finish, just something appropriate. <Mod Edit, WildCherry: Methods> I don't know what I think I'll achieve by publishing this post, but I feel like I have to write something down, at the least.