have you ever felt so isolated and disconnected from your family? well, my mom told me that i am not welcome at my brothers house on christmas eve, we all usally go there. she told me that my brother expected an apology before i can go ther, you see, recently i told my mom that john who use to be my step brother is the one who sexually melested me when i was about 12 yrs old he got me pregant which i didnt beleive that could happen but it did. my mom made me get an abortion, after that it was never brought up again. my therapist and i have started to work though it. my prob;lem is im not allowed to go to my brothers but its okay for someone else go there and worse is that my mom even though she says she knew all along what he did and she still except him in our family im her daughter hes nothing to her the only connection is that hes my brothers brother, my mom says she dosen't want to upset my brother what the hell. im done i just took my last pill and i'm beginning to feel the effects of the, i justc want to go to sleep peacefully. im sorry if what i wrote here dosen't make since but i can't even make since of anything.