I've tried and now I'm going to go I'm sorry

[ace]

I'm really sorry everyone I've tried for so long but I can't do this no more,I'm far to tired and sad to go on.the pain is to much for me I just want everyone to understand that it was far more painful for me to go on and that me leaving this world was better for me and I want people to respect my decision.I'm really sorry everyone I love you all please don't be dissapointed but I have to do this.:mellow: :sad:

 

[Scum]

What is it that makes your life so totally without hope?

I'm not going to try and change your mind, however maybe think about that question. And be honest. Think about the things you have tried and all the things you have yet to try, think about what you might want if you could have any future you want.

 

[ace]

What is it that makes your life so totally without hope?

I'm not going to try and change your mind, however maybe think about that question. And be honest. Think about the things you have tried and all the things you have yet to try, think about what you might want if you could have any future you want.

The constant sadness of severe depression even without no reason what so ever,I don't expect or want people to change my mind my head is and alway's is hurting so much.Where should I start? want to know one thing that's true well I'm stupid and that's the truth I know it no matter what people try and say it's a fact.What ever I do I fuck up because I'm just a complete total fucked up dumb ass. :sad:

 

[Scum]

What about the hope that you will not always have this illness, even if you have it right now?

You don't know for sure you will have it for ever.

 

[ace]

What about the hope that you will not always have this illness, even if you have it right now?

You don't know for sure you will have it for ever.

Yes I will have it forever how wont I not have it forever?what's going to change that I wont have it forever?I've always had it and always will no use in trying to kid myself and be a fool by saying it will go away because it wont.

 

[Scum]

Then let me ask you this.

Why did you post?

 

[Scum]

(and dont get me wrong, I'm not saying it's wrong you posted, it's good you posted, I just wondered)

 

[ace]

Then let me ask you this.

Why did you post?

Maybe I'm just stupid I shouldn't of,or perhaps to say goodbye and for people not to worry about me and I don't want sympathy.

 

[corral]

ace you seem like a very good person, ive seen you help lots of people here.
would you feel better if you had someone you love and someone who loves you in your life? like a partner? or do you have one?

 

[ace]

ace you seem like a very good person, ive seen you help lots of people here.
would you feel better if you had someone you love and someone who loves you in your life? like a partner? or do you have one?

I don't think a partner would make any or much difference really I've seen girls before but have nothing serious at the moment.I like helping people,but I'm too depressed myself with alot of problems and I don't have any strength anymore to go on.:sad:

 

[ace]

I have alot of meds from down the years anyway and surely that should do the job anyway goodbye.:sad:

 

[corral]

i just think if you tried to find a partner and if you found true love you would be happy. i know what it feels like to be in love and to lose a partner.
and i know you help others alot, maybe you should take a break from it and take care of yourself, but not a suicide.

 

[corral]

ace you ok?

 

[Sil]

Let us know what is making you so down

 

[ace]

ace you ok?

yeh I'm still here for now but don't know for how much longer I'm alway's getting down sometimes it's for reasons and sometimes it's nothing.It's always been the same story and it shits me to high heaven I have no motivation.

 

[Sadeyes]

just wanted to write to say i care...big hugs

 

[ace]

Thanks but theres no need for me to prolong this misery it's pure shit and I've made up my mind I'm outa this fuckin world.

 

[ace]

Thanks but theres no need for me to prolong this misery it's pure shit and I've made up my mind I'm outa this fuckin world.:sad:

 

[Rukia]

:cry: Don't give up! Ok? You can get through this, I know you can. :hug:

 

[ace]

it's sooo hard and I'm soo sad again for no particular reason.:sad: