For a long time now I've felt like my life is a mistake. I've tried so hard to be a good person, but my good feeling never lasts, in most cases whenever i start to feel good, that's when I start to sink so low. I've opened up to people in my life, I've told them exactly how I'm feeling. I've told my mother that every day I want to be dead and here I am alone. I'm always alone. I was always worried I'd be a burden to people if I told them how bad it was and now I realize that I'm not important enough to anyone for anyone to try and help save me and I can't save myself. I'm so tired, my heart hurts so bad and the only reason I can come with is that god made a mistake when he put me here. I literally bring nothing to anyone's life and I don't think I can go on much longer with these feelings. I've tried to kill myself before and I did see how much it hurt my family, but that's what makes it hurt so much harder now. The fact that I have that past, I tell them how bad I feel now and I have no one. I've told friends and I've tried so hard, but I can't deny this gutteral feeling that it's all a mistake. I'm not meant to be here, I don't have a purpose.