Its been a year since I was here and I still feel that there is no help. I was hoping to find a friend from here that would stick with me and help me get through this but it didn't happen then and I doubt that it will happen now. I am going to have to file for bankruptcy and I am afraid that my job is on the line. I have never been late in my house payment or my truck payment and the thought that I might be is so scary. I wake up every morning and dread the thought of having to get up. I cannot think of one thing that I care about. I am having panic attacks and feel that there is nothing to live for. I am seeing a therapist but she just doesn't get it. I am so tired of it all.