I've been using bath salts on and off my entire life. I was introduced to this form of drug in my earlier teens It wasn't a problem back then cause I had to be extremely secretive about it, so I didn't have a lot of opportunities to do it. But, now that I'm in my twenties and not living with my parents, it's really easy for me to get a hold of this drug. I can go home, do a line, and no one would care. I'm afraid it will get a hold of me again and I know it will, cause I am weak. <mod edit - glorifying drugs> It's just so tempting to indulge in it all. I'm afraid I might start using again. I've been trying to pin point where these feelings are coming from and I think it's because the emptiness is back. There's just always been an emptiness inside of me. Ever since I was a child I felt it. I remember asking my mom why I felt so empty inside. She just hugged me and cried. I don't think she understood it, but neither did I, so I cried too. We never talked about it. Maybe she thought if we didn't talk about it, then that feeling would go away. But it didn't. It just lingered and I don't know how to make it go away. But when I'm high, I understand this emptiness. And when I understand. I'm okay with it and then I'll be okay with myself too.