...screw up in each and evey one of them. I do have an account here. I've had it for months. But now I'm so ashamed that I can't even show my face. In the past I've proven that I can't do anything right. All forms of work have met with my usual failure. In addition I'm failing as a student, a son, a brother, a teacher, a lover, a friend, an enemy... everything. Now I'm failing as a living being. I'm sorry, so so sorry. I've tried and you've all helped me to try. Every time I try to hope I fall, and it's always my fault. I only have one hope left. So I'm going to use it to hope that dying isn't just something else I'll screw up on. --- Be content to be alive, in that alone you have what so many have been denied... easy enough to say right?