i lost my job in december, a job that i had loved very much. since my last ip hospital trip i had started feeling a bit better about it. then this morning something happened that triggered me right back to that time. now it feels all fresh again, like it just happened yesterday. i want to cry, i want to die, i'm just really seriously severely deeply depressed again. i don't know if i can handle going through it again. back to feeling worthless. back to feeling not good enough.