apparently its the depression that is causing me to hate my job and life so much and i always thought it was my job and life that made me depressed, go figure, it kinda explains it coz theres nothing really wrong with either but i wanna crawl away and hide from both. especially my job for some reason. i can handle my life to a certain degree but i wanna cry at just the thought of working and not just this job... any job, everytime i start looking for a new job it makes me even more depressed and frustrated coz i cant do anything and i dont want to do anything, i feel worthless and completely incompetent. i feel like if i just had the money i could quit and find myself in my own time but where am i gonna get the money??? is that really the answer anyway? would i even find something i liked or was good at? i should just accept that i will have to work for the rest of my life no matter how much i hate it!