I'm not really sure if this is the right forum for this? Sorry if it isn't! Don't hurt me!! Okay. So. Since January I've been unemployed. I've been going through a serious depressed episode and I'm no where near out of it but my parentals are putting on the pressure of getting a new job. I'm still unsure if I am mentally able to handle that....but it is almost out of my hands at this point. Parentals are just tired of paying my bills. ANYWAYS. Here is the dilemma I'm currently facing. And I'm sorry if it sounds like a stupid problem to have but for me it is a cause of extreme anxiety and stress and the cause of A LOT of tear shed. I'm 24. I am a college graduate. and I have 2 degrees. I have one in Culinary Arts and one in Hospitality Administration (hotel and restaurant management). My last job as a restaurant manager (and the one that sent me into my spiraling depressed episode) left me absolutely despising everything about the hospitality and restaurant industry. It was and still is considered a "great job that is fully descriptive of what is is like to be a manager in a restaurant". Essentially, it is how it would be to work in any restaurant. So, I have the Culinary arts degree. Which leads me to working in the kitchen side of things instead of management. But those jobs are so high stress and face paced that I know at this point in time, right now, I can't handle that and would end up worse off than I am now. Which brings me to where I am now. I could walk into any restaurant around here with my experience and get a waitress job. And first and fore most I want to say I am not dissing any waiters or waitresses reading this. Know that!!!! I have this pride monster in me that is telling me "You are too good to do that. That is beneath you, and you should be ashamed of considering that as an option". And of course I listen to the damn monster. And part of me does feel like that. Like, I went to school and graduated and i shouldn't be a waitress. I feel so stuck. I can't do management again. I won't. It was miserable. I worked 15 hour days 5 days a week. Every weekend. Every holiday. I lived there basically. But I can't bring myself to take a job that is "beneath me". Which is what I would be able to handle. One of the main reasons behind that is I live in a small town. And I know everyone. I would be so ashamed when people walked in and I'm their waitress and they ask..don't you have 2 college degrees on your belt? I wouldn't know how to respond. "oh I'm bipolar and I went to a psychiatric hospital and tried to kill myself so i'm just trying to not do that daily, what would y'all like to drink because i would love a beer right now". Help. Advice. Insight. Knowledge. Anything. PLEASE.