ive been off school for 2weeks coz of holidays i have to go back to school on monday... i dont no if i can cope im sick of putting on a fake smille and pretending everything is fine. on top of that im way behind in prity much all my classes. i dont no how this happened i used to be able to even when i was at my worst i could still do well in school. i was the one who did extra work i remeber staying late after school so i could finsh the work i was doing. now i just dont have any motervation. im so behind i dont have a clue how im going to catch up and keep up with nows work but some how im going to have to. coz i cant fail i have to do well to many people expect me to do well. and i dont know what id do if i failed the year if i fail this year i have to do dubble the work next year and i couldnt cope with that. you'd think this would be enought to get me to hury up and do the work but its just no i just cant seen to get the motervation to do the work i no i have to but i just dont no i guess i tryed to icnore the fact that was slowly getting behind but now that big assements are starting to be due its starting to catch up on me. i cant believe it its only just the start of 2nd term and im already this far behind how did the girl who used to take any extra work and still have normal work in way before it was due and the girl who used to stay after school to make sure she got finshed even if she didnt have to how did she end up at the point where she was way behind and wasnt even trying very hard to get caught up. im so scared of whats going to happen if i fail so so so many people are going to be disapointed thats the only thing my dad ever talks to me about is school if i fail he proply wont want to talk to me... how am i going to do this i need to catch up but i jut dont think i can. soccer hasnt even started yet how the heck am i going to do it when soccer starts OMGosh i cant handle this... what the hell am i going to do.... :blub: