I'm actually not looking forward to my birthday. I know people are usually happy when their birthday comes around, but I hate my birthday. I wish I didn't have one. I wish I could just skip Aug 9th, maybe I'll just sleep the whole day or something. Whoopee -- like I really need anything for my birthday. Like I really want to do anything for my birthday. Something always goes wrong anyways, and I'm left disappointed so why even bother getting excited about it. Just knowing that that day is coming up seems to be making me even more depressed. It's also irritating to hear other people getting excited about your own birthday, when you hate it. People keep asking me "What do you want for your birthday?" or "What are we doing for your birthday?" and I just tell them I don't know because it's easier then saying that I despise that day, and I don't want to do anything. I wish people would just leave me alone about it.