So, As a young kid, i had 2 abusers. They were of the sexual abuse natures. I've told people before. Generally i limit it to very vague information. I told 3 people the whole story, and.. Was told i was lying. The exact relationships i had, make it impossible to share the full details to anyone. And is probably why no one would believe me. It scarred me in a lot of ways. I fear more than anything else, having any sort of intimate relationships. No one understands why a fairly young male seems to be so opposed to random "hook ups" or why i feel so opposed to discussing it. I've been diagnosed with PTSD, but for other traumas. I haven't told my therapist(s). I have had full on melt downs, for various reasons i won't detail here. Guess life is full of trauma. All i can do, is dissociate or repress it. Not sure why it happened, but i refuse to trust anyone completely.