Strange, I had no reason to come here. I do not know who I am, nor what I have been doing. I intend to kill myself at some point as a gesture to my great escape. No -- I'm not stressed nor am I suffering from depression and anxiety. I'm not down on my luck and in-fact I'm doing well in life. Some of you might say I've lost it but that's not true. I'm not some nut job, neither am I sad, angry, lonely, or heart broken. Is it so wrong for someone to simply grow bored of living and wish to claim their own life? I can never risk telling family about my intent, they will surely have me locked away and I simply cannot allow that to happen. Some have suggested I go on medicine, that option is off the table. Then seeing a professional about it, been there and done that. They can't find anything wrong with me, except for -- surprise, surprise, me wanting to kill myself, that's money I'll never get back. It's not like I'm walking into this with clouded judgment or even recklessly. I still have one last debt to repay and funds to set aside for any expenses that I leave behind. I feel a sense of responsibility to make sure everything is handled and at least this way no on can say I was a crooked or dishonest man. As for those I leave behind at least minimal emotional damage will be done. I purposely cast most of my friends away and as for family, I don't have kids or a wife so that's less people I have to worry about. I still have mom, step-dad, two half-bros, and a grandmother who isn't well, who also happens to be not only my closest friend but a staunch ally. I can talk to her about anything but this subject. I figure time will help them cope with my passing. And I have been working on some sort of letter to leave closure. Problem is most people can't rationalize how someone can just get bored of living and commit suicide. Time and time again I try to make it clear that I am merely bored, I'm not in pain of any sort. There is nothing that can be done for me because there is nothing to be done. I'm not in dire straights like most who kill themselves and some just can't figure that out.