I haven't posted in about 7 months so I doubt anyone who will read it knows or cares about me. I'm so tired of trying to deal with shit. I feel like whatever I do doesn't matter. That my life is so meaningless. I really don't want to do this anymore. As pathetic as this sounds I'm crying alone in my house now knowing there is no one I can turn to. I've been on this forum for 7 years so it doesn't get better. My life is worthless and I don't really matter to anyone. I don't know why I still bother. I'm sorry for this stupid, meaningless post.