Thoughts has been going through my head and I just about had enough. I have cried a lot last night and this morning. Been up since 2:30am and felt worse then yesterday - emotionally. Just been thinking it's best I wasn't here anymore. Just burdening everyone and causing problems, not meaning to. Trying to convince myself on reasons to stay. Hoping these reasons will keep me going. So tired and depressed. Just want it to end. Sorry everyone. I haven't been the best. Just going to do my best to get through today. I have to. No choice really.