My self-esteem is so low it is severe. When I am around people, especially around my age, I feel so uncomfortable and inferior to everyone. I feel so worthless compared to everyone and I feel like no one likes me or wants to be my friend. I feel like a worthless piece of shit. Everyone is so much better than I am in every way possible. I know people say to not care about what other people think of you, but the thing is I have no one in my life except for my mother. I have no friends and never had a gf, nobody to be “on my side” to make me feel like I do exist and that I am worthy of friends and romance. But I am the only one on my side, besides my mother. It feels like everyone else is on the other side, together in ostracizing me and keeping me isolated. I am the town loser. I walk around here with nothing everyday all by myself. No friends, nobody around. The only thing I have is my bus pass in my pocket that takes me to the same places where I am alone while there are lots of people around. I feel like everyone is against me and everyone does not like me. The isolation is brutal, especially when it is done on purpose by others as it always has been. It is torture, a mockery. I am 27. Grown. And I see nothing changing. In fact, the more I try to change things for the better for myself, the worse the circumstances get, the consequences for trying. It makes me angry, sad, lonely, and in despair. All of my adult life has been like this. Constant rejection from anyone I ever tried to be friends with, rejected by every girl I asked out. How am I supposed to feel? I just feel that everyone around me has such better lives than me and has much more things that normally make people happy and I am not talking about money or materialistic things, I am talking about relationships, love, companionship, camaraderie. I’ve spent too many years reading books, listening to music, watching films, writing; which all equals to being by myself.