like many of the ones before. i'm feeling really down tonight. i feel like a failure. i've been having lots of financial problems lately and the one light i had at the end of the tunnel appears to be a train. tomorrow i go see my counselor again and my stomach is in knots. it's almost like a ptsd kind of reaction. i know i have to try something to get out of this place but i don't know if it will do any good. plus i can't really afford to go at the moment but i'm trying to make it happen. my life just sucks and i really don't see much hope that it will get better. my only consolation is maybe just learning to cope with being a failure.