Well I was really hoping to do something today, this week has been SOOO slow. Some friends were to come over, but they did not for some reason, but knowing Shane it was for a good reason. Its just I wish so much that I was as lucky as some ppl I know, having someone coming over just to see me, like how Mary got to see her BF almost every day. At times it makes me feel depressed and lonely. Man if she saw this I know she would feel guilty. I am so good at making others feel better,I just cannot do it for myself. Alot I know have ben told how things have gone for me, and it feel close to impossible on account of that. That's one reason every weekend I look so forward to seeing my friends, I don't know if they would understand that. LOL if she heard me say this aloud..all he could say would be OK! Its just right now all I could ask for is some love and affection, I think my blood pressure would go down..alot! lol anyways, thanks for reading/listening to my ramblings. Peace out everyone!