Just Another Lie I Tell

Discussion in 'I Have a Question...' started by Forgotten_Man, Dec 6, 2013.

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  1. Forgotten_Man

    Forgotten_Man Well-Known Member

    You know it is funny... I am not sure if this is the best place to post this but oh well. You know I always say that I am fine with things as they are. I am clearly lying about being fine with my roommate or my mom who needs a child in her life. Those are lies that I am just fine giving to people. Most people know that they are not true I just do not want to hurt anyone elses feelings or something like that. No this revelation or epiphany came to me while watching a TV show.

    While there is a degree of violence and death and darkness in the show. There is always this soft side as well... you know hero's can never just be about violence it is not normal for a person to have no one in their life. Anyway, I realized that whenever there was a scene of intimacy I would cringe a bit on the inside. The emotional intimacy a bit, but scenes of physical intimacy hit me the hardest. Which I find ironic because porn does not effect me at all in the slightest like that. It was then that I realized how much I cringed at stuff like that in real life as well.

    I personally hate spending time around my sisters and their boyfriends not because I am close or protective of my sisters in anyway, no it is because I know they are getting physical intimacy while I get none. I do the same with the females around my brothers. I know that they are just passing in the wind but still it makes me ill because I for some reason cannot break their delusions of me. Well regardless, it is an annoying epiphany to have.

    So yeah, just another way I am broken in my web of lies about giving up and not wanting anything. Just another reason to not take me seriously. Mind you that I will still give up on ever having such a thing. As they say "People in hell want ice water". I guess every once-in-a-while I need to make confessions like these to complete strangers who have nothing to do with me.
     
  2. demuredawn

    demuredawn Well-Known Member

    are you sure its a matter of jealousy as you say... or is it possibly something deeper?
     
  3. Forgotten_Man

    Forgotten_Man Well-Known Member

    It might be deeper, but I am too wrapped up in hating females to search deeper than that.
     
  4. demuredawn

    demuredawn Well-Known Member

    i'm wondering if u maybe have repressed/suppressed memories of abuse... do you have a therapist at all?
     
  5. Forgotten_Man

    Forgotten_Man Well-Known Member

    No I see no reason to get therapy, my hatred comes from being seen as little more than a wallet to females.
     
  6. demuredawn

    demuredawn Well-Known Member

    but sounds as if u don't even have much of an attachment to your sister... is that truly just cuz she's female?

    i can understand you being upset about being used for money ... i get upset at just being used period, and i have the same feeling about how men treat me most the time... idk, it just seems to me that there is something else there...

    do you see why i think that? i dont mean to invalidate you in any way. i understand why you feel as you do, and i can relate to it.... just that, normally a feeling such as that may make you isolate yourself from women in general, maybe the general populace in extreme cases.... but generally, those rules only apply to persons who are non-family unless family has mistreated the person in some way or there is some other form of social and or attachment or personality disorder by the person... maybe other mental disorders too, idk... just something to consider i guess... take care
     
  7. Forgotten_Man

    Forgotten_Man Well-Known Member

    The only creature I have any kind of emotional attachment to is my cat. So your assumption that I am not close to my sister is accurate.

    I can see why you want to see that something more is there, I cannot blame you. However, sometimes in life there is nothing deeper than what I show. No matter how much it sucks to think that a person can be as vile as me. I have had enough labels over the course of my life. Getting a medical sounding one will get me false sympathy and do nothing for me.
     
  8. demuredawn

    demuredawn Well-Known Member

    you dont seem to be vile at all to me... just seem like you need help to enjoy life... all of us here need that, theres no shame in that
     
  9. Forgotten_Man

    Forgotten_Man Well-Known Member

    I cannot obtain the only thing missing from my life so I have just given up and am waiting to die
     
  10. demuredawn

    demuredawn Well-Known Member

    what is that thing thats missing?
     
  11. Forgotten_Man

    Forgotten_Man Well-Known Member

    Why sexual intercourse of course. The only thing that I would need to keep me from performing a self-termination
     
  12. demuredawn

    demuredawn Well-Known Member

    hmm there is a thread that is discussing that called "Male Virginity and Depression.. My Story" ... might be beneficial to you too?
     
  13. Forgotten_Man

    Forgotten_Man Well-Known Member

    Hmmm well not a virgin if I was a virgin I might not be suicidal either. However, I doubt that thread will help unless it can tell me how to trick females into thinking I am desirable without drugs or anything like that. I am all to aware that everyone says "There is more to life than sex"though your method of saying it is quite creative. However, when I hear that phrase I always tell people I have experienced plenty and have no real desire to experience anything else as I have plenty of hobbies in my life to keep me busy for the next 100 years. I am just missing that one thing and if I had it I would not be suicidal. That has been my experience in life.
     
  14. demuredawn

    demuredawn Well-Known Member

    honestly, some of the responses in it are worth your looking into i think
     
  15. Forgotten_Man

    Forgotten_Man Well-Known Member

    Thank you for the suggestion, but I do not really feel like reading another thing about how being a sexless individual is not a bad thing. I have read enough of that garbage over the past 8 or so years.
     
  16. demuredawn

    demuredawn Well-Known Member

    that is not what the post responses are about
     
  17. Forgotten_Man

    Forgotten_Man Well-Known Member

    Well... I know this forum, they cannot be about how to actually attract a female.
     
  18. TomB

    TomB Member

    Lmfao, bro you're raw as fu#k. I'm laughing my ass off reading your epic replies.

    I already know what kind of person you are based on the few entries you have made in this thread. You are that guy that likes to watch anime and read manga. You're probably really skinny or slightly overweight which gives you a false idea that girls do not find you attractive, that would be the primary reason why you would make such assumptions.

    To get girls, its very simple, its all about having that animal magnetism, having that sexual appeal. To improve your outward physical appearance all you have to do is eat a well balance diet and hit the gym 6 days a week. And that is it, that is the answer to your problems, you do that for 3-12 months, girls will be lining up at your door. And I would say if you're an individual who enjoys watching anime, I would expect that your intelligence is somewhat above average, and you should have no problem making conversation with a random person. All you need is that little bit of extra confidence which good diet, gym membership will give you ...after you put in the required time.

    No matter, how ugly you think you are, or how awkward, or w\e other delusions haunt your mind. Good diet, and working out will fix it, you will start to feel better, look better, you will gain confidence, you will see the world in a new way.


    And I'm not really, an anime or manga person my self. My friends sister was, we called her "manga freak" lol, due to the fact that she used to stay up all night long, and read 100's upon 100s of manga chapters . So in affect she hooked me into that whole thing, and that is why I am able to see and understand you. And maybe I do not have a huge list of anime\manga under my name, but there was one that I really liked, its called Claymore, work of art really.


    Nah, but really those replies you gave, they are next level . When I feel like trolling the internet , I write in a very similar manner.

    P.S.
    Ohh and if that doesn't work there's always hookers. They are rather below me, but I guess rather worth mentioning to prevent someone from "self terminating".
     
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  19. Cariad_Bach

    Cariad_Bach Staff Alumni

    Oh, me too, me too. Romantic films etc are really hard for me to watch. Even though I have a bf atm. He told me he wanted to be "everything one person can be to another" to me. And I cringe when I see people being that for each other. On telly or in life. Not that I don't want others to be happy, you understand, just because I don't know whether we ever will be... Whether I'm capable of that, or going to be found deserving of that - by him or anyone else.

    Because no matter how many times he tells me I'm lovely and wonderful and fab and worthy.... I always find evidence to the contrary, and there's always obstacles to its accomplishment.
     
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