It never bothered me that I couldn't have children (I had my ovaries removed due to endometriosis) before. Then after my parents died, then my Aunt, it has suddenly become an issue for me. Not all the time, but at times like this. My youngest cousin's baby shower. My cousins and I are not even near close anymore (their decision - not mine). Yes, they lost their parents as well (I think our family is cursed...), but they are making their own families now. I can't.:sad: And of course, all their friends were their with their babies. All cute little bundles 4,5,6 months old. My whole fucking world is shrinking!!!!