Never did I ever think I would get this low ... I just can't deal with life anymore. I put way too much pressure on myself, I constantly compare myself to others, and feel like I fail miserably. I get insanely jealous of everything everyone close to me has achieved. I have no self esteem and I can't bring myself to make the most of opportunities. I hate myself and nothing I ever do is good enough. I am so horrendously ugly, both on the inside and outside. Can't help but think, what more do I have to live for? cant go on living like a loser any longer. Can't bear to think I can live another day while hopes and dreams fade further and further. It's like there's this darkness around me that will forever stop me being happy. I need to end it soon.