i step out into the world and see happy beautiful girls that i know would never be with me and faimlys holding there little kids and the whole world is moving and im froze in time looking at the world from outside of my body thinking i dont need to be here.
Happy beautiful girls?
Well - try and wish them luck in your mind - be glad for them - its nice to see young women with their kids.
And 50% will divorce - so whilst they may not be with you now - who knows?
I'm an older guy - odds are I'll meet a women divorced - with kids. At my age - few single women are childless - in my area at least - most have kids young - so by the time they are 40 they are mates with daughters - both still young.
You THINK these women might not want you - well - maybe you can mind read - and if so - good luck with your career on TV.
If you cannot mind read - well - you'll have to ask one out.
As for beautiful - I'm more thinking about who she is - what she looks like - I don't put that much importance in looks - because a beautiful women might be not so beautiful inside.
She might be good looking - but very mean. You come home for quiet after work and face nuclear meltdown. So - choose a woman who does not kick the dog or threaten to kill you - too often!
In a few years you will likely be walking down the street with a women and kids. But - whilst its great - it carries a set of challenges - its not 100% happiness - but - it beats being alone for some.
So nothing stopping you having a family of your own one day.
You got lots of time there.
not having kids is fun also.
I mind other peoples.
Its easier.