Nightmares every single night..It's making me terrified of sleeping, in fear of the nightmares, the only way I can sleep is by drugging myself. I'm considering telling my counselor, but I just can't bring myself to do it..I don't know why, out of shame, embarrassment? I mean, I've told my two best friends, but even that took like 5 years to do, it's ridiculous. :sad: Sometimes I feel like I should have fought harder, I should have told someone when they could have done something about it, but I didn't..And I know that it will haunt me for the rest of my life. I wish I could just take some magic pills and everything would be right with the world, but that doesn't happen. I wish I could just put it all behind me and forget it didn't happen, but I can't.