Just can't keep doing this..

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by bebe*, Apr 30, 2009.

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  1. bebe*

    bebe* New Member

    Hey everyone, I'm new...

    I guess I'm here because I don't know what to do anymore. I feel stupid talking about my problems, because I know there are people out there with much worse problems than me. I feel pathetic comparing myself to them, as if my problems are not that important...

    In the past few months, I have broken up with an ex who has cheated on me three times. Everything was going great after... I had my best friends near me, I had my family, a new guy who I thought was the most wonderful person ever... soon, everything began to change. The new guy I have deeply fallen in love with, does not treat me right... yet I can't seem to get myself away from him,
    I love him deeply... the kind of love I have never felt before, and I do not know why... he knows I love him so much, and takes advantage of that. I treat him like he's my everything.

    I have lost my best friends because they don't like him... I am constantly depressed because I miss them. but there is no way getting them back, unless I break up with him. At the same time, I feel happy when I am with him, but as soon as he leaves, I feel terrible again. Some days are worse than others... I just feel so completely alone. I don't want to talk to anyone.. I just sit in my bed and cry... I truly don't want to deal with this anymore. I have been considering suicide for the past few weeks, on and off...
    it's starting to seem like the only way out... it's like I can't leave him but I can't be with him either.. I just feel so completely alone, a feeling I have never ever felt before in my life.:sad:

    Sorry this was long..I appreciate whoever took the time reading this.
  2. WildCherry

    WildCherry ADMIN

    Welcome to SF. Your problems are just as important as everyone else's.

    I know this isn't what you want to hear. But if this guy isn't treating you right, you need to find a way of breaking away from him. I know how hard it is, because I've been there. I dated a guy who didn't treat me well at all; my friends hated him, but yet for a while I stayed because I thought he would change someday. But he didn't change, and I finally had to break all contact with him.

    You deserve to be treated with respect. And I know you love him; but it takes two, working together, to make a relationship work.

    I hope you're able to break away from him. If you do, maybe you'll have your friends back, and they can help you through the tough times.

    If you ever need to talk, you can PM me anytime.
  3. morning rush

    morning rush Well-Known Member

    No one should compare problems because no one reacts the same way. And the goal is to be happy is it not? So what makes you happy might not make someone else happy. It doesnt mean you shouldn't be happy. You deserve all the happiness in the world.

    It's hard to let go when were in love with something or someone thats not good for us....but if he's making you unhappy maybe its time to let go. I'm sure your friends will help you forget him and find someone much better and worthy of you....

    you deserve happiness and love....
  4. shades

    shades Staff Alumni

    As Wild Cherry said: your issues are as important as anyone else's. Relationship issues are very abundant here and are workable. If this guy's not treating you well (and you do deserve to be treated well, as said above) you should move on. I know it;s easy for others to say, but many of us have been there. I'm a guy but have had friends in this position and have helped them through it. Your friends will still be there for you if they are true friends and we will be here for you as well.
  5. bebe*

    bebe* New Member

    Thanks for the advice guys... I just wish it was as easy as it sounds...
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