Another day of my mother shouting abuse at me non-stop. Non-stop. Screaming right at my face, that I'm ''worthless'' and ''a loser'' along with her usual swearing and names. I'm 35. She has done this all my life. She sabotaged every attempt I made to escape her toxic presence. There's absolutely no-one to ask for help. No one cares. And I'm done. Just can't do it anymore. She has actually told me I should kill myself and even though it's playing right into her hands - I just can't take the pain anymore. Or the loneliness. Every day is just soul-crushing despair. Enduring not living. I never had a chance. But at least it will be over.