i have been told that i frequently offend others and that i am mean to those around me. i had no idea i came across this way, i never intended for it to be like this. i have tried to care, be genuine and show support even if it meant that others feelings came first. but now i find myself alone most of the day. i rarely go anywhere or do anything. i can't stand the thought that i could keep hurting other people or make them feel stupid so i stay alone. tonight i am very much alone. i hurt all over. i know no one cares, no one has missed me or has called for over a month. to them i am already dead. so what's the point now? who will really miss me once i am gone? no one.