I cut Myself for the first time today. I hate myself. Life is so fcking unfair and horrible. Loneliness kills. Seeing couples hold hands and hug makes me hate them. Makes me hate myself. I'm not good enough to have someone here by my side. I can stand watching happy couples be happy. I just wana throw rocks at them. I'm a fuck up and a piece of shit. I want to leave this place alredy. I don't BELONG. Fuck.. Tomrow Il cut deeper until I finally die. Fuck I can't wait..