I have been being treated for depression for over 45 years nothing seems to work. Before I was born my mother who was pregnant with me at the time very early in the pregnancy tried to have an abortion the doctor told her she was too far along that he couldn't perform it. That is a preface to being told this on her deathbed not long ago that I was not wanted they didn't want to have me and didn't intend to have me but we're stuck with me. My older brother confirmed this for me but he said it's something that the family never talked about he is 10 years older than me. So fast forward to July of this year 2023 I have stopped taking all my meds as my doctor and I have found out that nothing really works for me. It's been a very Rocky road. I am married have been for 32 years and the only family that I have are my in-laws. We don't have any children didn't want to have any children. We're all practical purposes I should not be here today this Friday the 20th of October. It was my intention not to wake up this morning. Another failure in my long list of failures in my life. As I was searching online I found an article on this site. The three main points of the article were depression is a liar. 0 forgive yourself and the last statement was it's easier to believe bad things. This stopped me in my tracks and help me realize I cannot go on like I am now. Taking my own life is no longer an option in any way shape or form. I'm so glad I found this online it means to me but I'll be here another day and most likely many more after that.
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It is truly awful that anyone would have told you that you were not wanted - many many people in the world start as unplanned pregnancies and there is no shame in it. Every human deserves to be treated with respect and kindness. I am 54 and didn't have kids either for several reasons including the fact that I was physically and emotionally abused as a child myself. Hugs and best wishes.
