Nothing is happening. There is no event per se. I am hurting my kids. My wife tells me so. Right now, i have sunk so low and i try to keep it up. But i can't. I can't leave my room, i sit in the dark. I can hear my family. My daughter brought me sugar cookie and she said, i love you, daddy, i want you to be happy. I told her i love her, too. I told her i was happy. She knows it's not true. I wish it would be ok, but i can't think of how it can be. I don't think my wife cares one way or the other. My daughter said, i am worried about daddy. My wife said, why? What did he say to you? As if i would say something to upset her! It's just so far gone and i can't think my way out.