I am at the end of my rope. I am tired of fighting the evil enemy inside me. I thought I had friends, bu they just turned out to be aquantences and I can trust no one. Talk is cheap and people will say anything to get you to do anything or shut up. I guess I am just sick of getting used by people that I thought cared. I am mentally, emotionally and physically drained and have nothing left. I just want to see what is on the other side and think of death often. I enjoy of thinking of ways to end my life and how it would be in the afterlife. I am never good enough for any girl to be more than just friends with and even then they usually don't even want that (friendship). I would do anything for my friends at any hour and I get not even a thank you. I just want to end it all and then maybe people would stop and think twice or maybe they wouldn't even notice as they do now.