I don't know why i'm posting this. There's no point really; I just didn't know what else to do. I can't do this anymore... everything is just falling apart. I can't talk to anyone, but I can't handle this on my own. Everyone thinks of me as such an optimist, and when they need encouragement they always come to me- but I don't know how much longer I can keep this up. I just need to die right now, because this is getting out of control. Other people have it so much worse than I do, but everything is just building up, and eventually I'm going to crash. I'm trying to stay calm, but all I really want to do is jump out of this window and never breathe again.